Josh and I went home over the weekend for two purposes, to see my grandfather (whose health is failing), and to clean out my things from my father's house (he's selling the house). Neither of these things were positive emotionally for me. I was feeling a lot of stress building up to going home, and then even the first day and a half we were there stress stress stress, but I realized somewhere along the way that it's not the end of the world, and ultimately I was trying harder to please people than to please God. God always redirects me when I get in too deep to see my way out. When I hit rock bottom, he lifts me up. When it all seems hopeless, he gives me hope. There is more to life than work and cleaning. There is time for family and loved ones. There is time to have hobbies - to read and quilt, and take Rigby for runs, and exercise, eat right. There is more to life than the day-to-day stuff. I was fixated on "when will we have a house", and "will we be moving back to Pittsburgh for sure" and "Josh is never able to spend time with me because of all his homework" (which is inaccurate) and wasn't thinking about how wonderful this time in our lives is. We're making a foundation for our future. There are bright lights, I just have to get better about opening my eyes. The season's changing - it's October! My favorite month of the year, it's going to be Josh's Birthday soon - how exciting! I finally have a nicer schedule with more than just one day off at a time! We're not desperately struggling with finances! We have a squeaky clean apartment right now! I'm almost done with one of the books I've been wanting to read for over a month! and have 3 more already on the list. I found a new quilting book when I was cleaning things out of my room. I haven't quilted anything for a while! Maybe it's time to get back into that. So, as always, I'll close with prayer. Lord, you are so good to me. You give me a hopeful heart, you give my life purpose and meaning. You bless me, over and over and I don't deserve it. I pray that you would be with my Dad. I pray that you would help him find a job and make a transition from the house easy and without difficulty. I pray that you would be with my mom and my grandpa. Give my mom strength and energy to care for my grandfather, give her comfort. Give my grandfather strength to help my mom, but most of all, if he has not found you, I pray that he would. I pray that you would show yourself to him, and let him know what it really means to give your life to Christ. I pray for Josh - I pray that he would have the energy and dedication to complete all of his work for this week. I pray that you would guide him through law school. I also pray that you would open doors for us in Pittsburgh, so that we can move closesr to home - if it be your will, Lord. Thank you for all your blessings Lord. In your name I pray, Amen.
Love, Sara
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