It is 10:30am on a saturday morning. I worked last night until 12:00am, I work tonight, and I work tomorrow night. Then I have one day off and do another 3 days. I just feel like... The patients in our unit are high maintenance, and there isn't anything being given back. They're a bunch of takers, and nurses instinctually are a bunch of givers. I'm giving so much of myself that I'm drained and exhausted... I came home and crashed in bed - sleeping until 10:00am without ever budging. And I'm a tosser-turner kind of sleeper. And I'm sad because my summer weather has left temporarily.
Josh and I are still waiting on word back from Pittsburgh - it's the weekend so I'm not getting my hopes up for today or tomorrow... But next week is the end of March, and I'm praying praying praying that we hear something back. The anticipation is killing me. Josh's mom agreed to go look at an apartment for us this weekend - so hopefully we'll hear good things back about that. Although it's kind of difficult to move forward when we don't have a solid answer from the public defender's office. I'm waiting on that before I can start any of my paperwork to switch my license over. Which, if you think about it, isn't it silly? We know that we're probably going to be in the area - Josh has an internship in Butler if things don't work out in Allegheny County. But if I could get a job in Butler, that would be nicer to live there and not have Josh commuting an hour every day. God has perfect timing, God has a plan. God is in control - and I can trust in God. I have to keep reminding myself of that. Just thinking about it gives me a stomach ache.
Well, next weekend Josh and I are going to visit my brother in Scranton. I'm looking forward to it. I would like to go on a long vacation someday. Just relaxing, no dishes, no laundry, no cleaning, no grocery shopping - just relaxation. *sigh* wouldn't it be nice. It's almost summer, which is good enough for me. I dearly love summer. Riding bicycles, grilling in the yard, playing outside with Rigby, I love summer. Here's to looking forward to summer, and resting in the assurance of God's promises.
Love, Sara
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