Faith

Josh has an interview with an immigration law firm today at 1:30pm. I pray we would know even today if he is able to get the externship, and we could rest easy knowing that he doesn't have to go back to New Hampshire. I feel like normally I would have faith with a situation like this - that whatever is to happen is God's will, and even if it was not what we were hoping for, it is the better option - and we would be unhappy if we got what we wanted and God's will was not done. However, I fear for my strength if Josh goes. I fear that even if that's what God has planned, I won't be able to make it through. And I find myself so anxious over this interview and the answer that follows the interview for those reasons. Even if the road is hard, I must have faith. I must trust in the Lord.

Lately I've been finding it hard to wiggle in bible-reading time due to my flip-flopping schedule (I started working night shift this past week - more to come on that later). Not that working night shift is ever an excuse... but anyways.. I can feel myself suffering from it... from not reading, not praying, not thinking of God. Bad thoughts, resentment and bitterness, materialism, envy, I've been an emotional wreck to top it all off - which could be due to sleep deprivation as well, but either way! My life really suffers when I don't spend time with God reading the bible and praying. I know this happens, and yet I still find myself rather getting just 15 more minutes of sleep or doing the dishes real quick before I go to work instead of taking time in the Word before a long shift. It's my goal to keep on this. To make reading my bible and spending some quality time with the Lord my priority. There will always be dishes in the sink, and realistically 15 minutes of sleep isn't going to do a whole lot.

Today I read Romans chapter 4. verses 20-25 read: "Abraham never wavered in believing God's promise. In fact, his faith grew stronger, and in this he brought glory to God. He was fully convinced that God is able to do whatever he promises. And because of Abraham's faith, God counted him as righteous. And when God counted him as righteous, it wasn't just for Abraham's benefit. It was recorded for our benefit, too, assuring us that God will also count us as righteous if we believe in him, the one who raised Jesus our Lord from the dead. He was handed over to die because of our sins, and he was raised to life to make us right with God." NLT


Faith is a huge part of a relationship with God. Faith that He will provide, faith that His Will will be carried out, faith that he will not give me more than I can handle, faith that He will keep his promises. I must have faith.

<3 Sara

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