childhood dreams

The other day, I was day-dreaming about my old high school days, about waking up in the morning and training for cross country, the beautiful woods and hills that we would see back behind the CHS. I remember one time running down this hill that leads to the back entrance of the school, and there was a black bear off in the distance. It was so quiet out there that I could just barely hear its footsteps rustling in the leaves on the ground. It was an awesome experience. I also remember running in this one spot where there's an overlook of the entire valley, and you can see a bright red barn with farm animals grazing in the pastures, and big trees shading the road with not a car in sight.

I also remember singing all the time. Singing with my brother accompanying me on piano, singing with my ipod on the track bus, singing in the talent show, with jvezz and claire... I pulled out my guitar yesterday to bring some of that back in my life, but it's just not the same (my voice isn't what it used to be)... I wonder.... is it normal for childhood dreams to die like this? The three things I loved most in high school were band, singing, and running. Obviously there aren't many marching bands out there I could become a part of. But singing and running, I can still do those things - at least until my knees give out.

Lately I've been really struggling with contentment in my job and our current location. I miss the country a lot - not used to city life. I'm sure that will change with time, but I also feel like my job limits my ability to join in things, however.. that doesn't mean I shouldn't try anyways. And... I saw a good bit of wisdom on my sister-in-law's blog that I will share too, God has placed us here for some reason, so I might as well try to make the best of it. And I have this job for some reason, so I might as well get through it. And most importantly, I need to trying living for God for a change - and being so caught up in him that I couldn't care less about my job or living in the city. These are my goals for the upcoming "season of life". Get back into running and singing, and find contentment in God.

Love, Sara