God knows me better than I know myself, and this has really become apparent to me the past couple days. I've been reading C. S. Lewis's book "Mere Christianity", and it has been challenging me and opening my eyes to things I didn't see before. So, I've decided to rise to the challenge and really Listen to god, really learn what I was missing and really pray and work on the things he shows me. That should have been happening all along in my life, but unfortunately it wasn't. I thought I was pretty alright compared with some people I've seen, until I started feeling so empty inside and unhappy with everything in my life, and worst of all taking all these things out on my patient and loving husband. But god found me where I was and wreaked havoc until I (being the stubborn person I am) finally turned to him. How much less stress I feel, how much more at peace I feel. I said before I knew god was in control but I didn't mean what I said... I was still hanging on for dear life.
Hopefully this is just a preview of things to come, and I know everyday won't be charged with a good feeling, but those are the days to think with the mind and not the heart.
Love, Sara
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